not a fan of the in sickness part of those vows

I need a really good hug
I need someone next to me a night to rub my head and lull me into sleep
I even need him to be back snoring next to me waking me up
I miss my husband and want him better soon

it's a lot to ask of a 10 year old

I have to go to school and work today and as luck would have it C has a snow day so I have been instructing him on some basic care taking methods for his father, just for today, just for a little while. MIL will be over later so I am not entrusting hubby care entirely on the boy but it did strike me that I can't ask this of the kid in any real capacity..it's not fair on his 10 year old self. Looking at the calendar Christmas break is fast upon us and I want to keep C as occupied as humanly possible during that time. Yesterday we were blessed with enough snow to sled and a great new neighbor who fed & kept a general eye out on C. Today I am going to call his old daycare and see if there are any spots open over the holiday break so he can spend his days with his pals there and I am going to take up some friends on their offers of how can we help as well to keep the kiddo busy, happy & distracted.

and more on that illness thing

most of the right now angst for me surrounding David's illness is we don't know what is wrong and I am scared. I am not a particular fan of the unknown. After a long Saturday we called an ambulance to bring him to the ER to hopefully get some relief. Which we did some relief not a cure and a CT scan & blood work showed nothing. While grateful for that there is a small part that wished they found XYZ and we can do ABC to fix him however they sent him home. Yesterday was rough again but less so than Saturday. Perhaps now insurance will grant the MRI they were questioning clearly something is wrong with the man and I want him fixed dammit. Have I mentioned Christmas is less than 2 weeks away? We have a tree up with lights but no ornaments, my card were ordered just this weekend, have everything ready to do some baking it just has not happened, Christmas gifts well I am going to shop online for C today everyone else will just have to wait this year. I am hanging on by a thread trying to focus on just getting through each individual day.

way to boost my spirits

David is in poor health right now and it has been a trying time quickly for us....I was in tears talking to my mother last night and in her attempts to buoy my spirits she commented on the line of strong women I come from " yourgreat grandmother, well your grandmother wasn't so strong, a strong mother.."
wait a minute what if it skips a generation then I'm screwed too like my grandmother bwahahaa actually the laugh did cheer me up somewhat. Sleep helped a whole pile more.

wait a minute I mean me...

the Jiffy corn bread on the very bottom shelf at Kroger is poor planning at best. Oh it's all well and good when the product is stocked but try shopping for it around the holidays. Invariably it sells well and folks buy the boxes out from the front and you have to dig to get the boxes stocked back further in the shelves or you could assume they are out of stock and shop elsewhere. Luckily I only had to bend down and my arm was just long enough to grab a couple of boxes instead of getting on the dirty floor just for corn bread. I was just annoyed enough to run by customer service and suggest they fix the problem because "you might have an older customer that cannot get the corn bread" and I walked off considering the fact that I'm an older customer not interested in sitting on the floor to shop

not allergic I just don't like the stuff

peanut butter that is...bleech can not stand the stuff. Of course the rest of the household loves peanut butter even the dog loves peanut butter-it's the only way I can get him to take medicine-I will break down annually and have a pb & j sandwich or pb & apple butter and so I hit that annual mark and had a pb & strawberry jelly sandwich, it was good I'll even go out on a limb and say I enjoyed it & it was great. A week later I found myself with no options for lunch and thought what the hell the last pb & j was so good I'll bring one again...bleeech had my annual sandwich and the second try was gross, so I know to wait about a year before trying again

HAPPY TURKEY DAY!

dreaded grocery store visit

I know better and I considered grocery shopping for Thursday this past weekend but it just did not work out because life in general has been crazed to put it mildly lately. So I made my list checked it twice, checked it a third time; I've grocery shopped the night before Thanksgiving before it's not for the feint of heart. So I braved the Kroger last night it was pretty busy but I managed I got what I needed or so I thought.....yes I have to go back this evening

the day after Thanksgiving rule

I am considering breaking my mother's golden rule you know the one about Christmas not beginning until the day after Thanksgiving...Yup I believe my tree is gonna get put up this very weekend, mere days prior to turkey day...shhhh don't tell her.
however I will respect the no Christmas music till next Friday, but next Friday all bets are off it's all Christmas all day

when I win the lottery

I plan on hiring a some full-time help over and above normal cook, housekeeper etc etc...

1. full time masseuse so I can have a massage every day
2. manicurist so I can have nails & toes touched up whenever
3. someone to throw my sheets in the dryer & make my bed up just before I go to sleep each night because I love warm clean sheets

that pretty much covers it....and don't confuse the issue by telling me I'll never win because I never buy tickets

oh yeah I want a steam room too so when I get the inevitable cold I have a room where I can sit and breathe for a little bit