bad luck comes in threes right?

as of yesterday David has had
-3 ambulance trips
-3 ER visits
-3 hospital stays
all in 4 months time...when does the good luck start? Should we buy a lottery ticket this week?

back to the grindstone

it's David's first day back to work! It's time and he is much improved of course I am still concerned but he has reassured me if he did not feel ready he would not be going. It still kinda makes me feel the way I did on C's first day of school. While I hated the circumstances it was kinda nice to have David around the house more, convenient for Christmas break& snow days plus he had been taking C to swimming & basketball as well as frequently having dinner cooked by the time I got home!

medical update

David
-is still improving and is on track to start back to work next week-yay!
-still nothing specific could be explained you know the this was what was wrong with you which still leaves me unsettled but it's not something I can do anything about
Me
-still losing hair to beat the band *giant sigh* I did order some hair care stuff a friend recommended but with all the wacky weather around the nation it has not arrived yet fingers crossed it will be at my door step this afternoon..fingers also crossed that it works
-thinking about wig shopping because evidently weaves are hella expensive
-in a related note watch Chris Rock's Good Hair when you get the chance it's great
-my doctor visit was fine he is sending my to a dermatologist about the hair loss thing but that is not till next week

-he did find a lump in my breast that I get checked out tomorrow. No worries I am confident it will be like the last one totally normal fibrous lump. It did how get me thinking I need to be better about checking my breasts monthly as well as getting an regular mammogram now that I am old
-my insurance sucks can't wait to see what I wind up having to pay on this stuff

not a fan of the in sickness part of those vows

I need a really good hug
I need someone next to me a night to rub my head and lull me into sleep
I even need him to be back snoring next to me waking me up
I miss my husband and want him better soon

and more on that illness thing

most of the right now angst for me surrounding David's illness is we don't know what is wrong and I am scared. I am not a particular fan of the unknown. After a long Saturday we called an ambulance to bring him to the ER to hopefully get some relief. Which we did some relief not a cure and a CT scan & blood work showed nothing. While grateful for that there is a small part that wished they found XYZ and we can do ABC to fix him however they sent him home. Yesterday was rough again but less so than Saturday. Perhaps now insurance will grant the MRI they were questioning clearly something is wrong with the man and I want him fixed dammit. Have I mentioned Christmas is less than 2 weeks away? We have a tree up with lights but no ornaments, my card were ordered just this weekend, have everything ready to do some baking it just has not happened, Christmas gifts well I am going to shop online for C today everyone else will just have to wait this year. I am hanging on by a thread trying to focus on just getting through each individual day.

way to boost my spirits

David is in poor health right now and it has been a trying time quickly for us....I was in tears talking to my mother last night and in her attempts to buoy my spirits she commented on the line of strong women I come from " yourgreat grandmother, well your grandmother wasn't so strong, a strong mother.."
wait a minute what if it skips a generation then I'm screwed too like my grandmother bwahahaa actually the laugh did cheer me up somewhat. Sleep helped a whole pile more.

my Monday in the waiting room

Happy Mother's Day!

my sweetest mothers day memory would be from a good 4 years before I became a mother, in our first year of marriage my sweet goofy husband gave me my first mothers day gift because some day I would be somebody's mommmy someday.
So far so good this year I have managed to sleep away most of the morning and will be headed out in a bit to spend the rest of the day with my own mom and the rest of the family.

no no I ate a LOT of BBQ

when I was pregnant that is and if when C was was born they told me his blood type was mesquite I would not have be surprised in the least. That is why I find it all too cute when asked what David could bring C for lunch at school today the final decision was ribs.

racial identity

with as pale as I am the fact that C is a light skinned as he his was a shock to no one. I'll go so far as to say he is passin' well maybe not in the summer time when he tends to mocha up a bit but I digress. As a toddler he was confused by the 1/2 black 1/2 white thing he tended to view it in zebra terms "this half is the white half etc..etc" As he is growing up he is identifying more with his black half. Last year okay it was the elections and at school "the black kids were all voting for Obama and I am one of the black kids" of course I pointed out more importantly in that particular case we were democrats but again I digress. His video game avatar is always clearly black and no not African American my husband's family has never been to flippin Africa and yes I now how not PC of me well too bad. What I found amusing yesterday was the discussion of an older video game he played that had Derek Jeter and "did you know in the game he was BLACK" what the hell was up with that was the gist of that conversation so I pointed out that well Mr Jeter was indeed black just like you my dear boy.