when reality creeps into your dreams

generally speaking not a fan because it is usually not the fun stuff that pops up in my dreams nope instead it is almost always the things that happen to be weighing on my mind well for instance last night 2 separate but equal problems in my life got wrapped up in a nice little package of angst with a bow on top for me to wake up with on this Monday morning which I happen also not particularly be a fan of

Monday.....

why is it some Mondays are more Mondayier than others?

it's Monday..again?!

so soon?!?!
really?????
did you know that next week is Thanksgiving? and gulp a mere 39 days till Christmas?
good grief we do even have Thanksgiving dinner planned or Christmas cards ordered....
ack let the holiday panic commence

the mark of a crappy vacation

coming back to work more stressed and cranky than when you left...
more on all of that later I have a pile of junk to dig through that is even worse than the pile I left which is no small feat I might add

happy monday!

C is student of the week this week. Not too clear on all that will entail but for starters he had to make a poster about himself this past weekend which lead to the inevitable the last family portrait we had made was almost 5 years ago discussion. But I found some pictures he could use and all was right with the world-or at least our little part of it anyway-project completed. I drove C to school this morning so his poster would not get messed up or forgotten on the bus. Care to guess what was the one thing he forgot to bring to school? Luckily we live relatively to close to the school so I dashed back home & dropped it back off for him at the office.

well that's problematic

I forgot to set up the coffee pot last night

monday monday again

the new year bumps slowly along and today starts the first full week at work in what seem simultaneously feels like forever and not quite long enough. Tomorrow C starts back to school and can someone explain why it makes more sense to start on Tuesday instead of Monday have they not been off long enough? School for me starts on the 15th why a Thursday? who knows? What I do know is my school schedule will have me working on Saturdays which I am not looking forward to but I have to keep focusing on the end game and remember this is only going to get more difficult as I progress ever so slowly towards nursing school. hopefully.

happy monday!

fall break is over & back to reality thank you very much. C did not want to go to bed last night I know he was still up when I went to bed around 10, no idea when he finally went to sleep. I briefly toyed with the idea of letting him sleep in & then driving him to school but hell no if you stay up that late suffer little boy. I have avoided the drive into the Intermediate school thus far-3 schools feed into essentially 1 entrance so I vowed early he would be taking the bus every day for the next several years. Somehow he managed to get ready in time and we headed down to the bus stop. Idle chit chat with some of the other parents, just waiting for the bus, and waiting, and waiting. Once the bus was 15 minutes late we headed back to the house for the car & I drove C in, so we totally could have slept in a little longer..who knew? The drop off was no big deal the other 2 schools do start at different times and it was still very early so the car lines were not crazy yet. Although I will say it doesn't seem to be handled with the precision you see at the Primary School so we'll continue to avoid it as much as possible.

patience

it's a virtue.
it's a virtue I do not possess.

and it has been downhill ever since

started my morning out with a minor panic attack at work-oh wait I really started out by being accosted by a homeless guy as I was walking into the store, fun when you are trying to get in the store, re-lock and dash over to the ear-splitting wake-the-dead-alarm before it goes off while carrying all your junk & a hot cup of coffee. In all fairness discovered later he was indeed a bizzman selling watches perhaps not homeless at all but I digress..
Opened my pay stub to find less than a weeks worth of hours in the vacation slot. It is not something I generally concern myself with, I get several weeks a year & rarely use all my time but going away next week just gave it a glance. As I said panic attack, figured I would have to work both days this weekend and some overtime which is not really overtime per se as I am salary but I would owe the company time. I took a moment and emailed the owner that does payroll and she in fact had already deducted my time off so no worries but it was not an amusing start to my day.
My counterpart is on vacation this week so people talk to me more when he is gone and not in a good way I have to deal with more silliness than is humanly possible at work
'cause it's not like my normal silliness is going away or anything I just have double the fun.
And I have a headache that won't go away.
And PMS.
And class tonight.

monday monday

not a big fan of them but I have found absolutely no way to avoid them as of yet- if someone can figure out how & let me know that would be great!

mondays suck!

as I sit here finishing a glass of wine & debating with myself whether or not I need to open a bottle..my guess is I'd wake up with a hangover & have a crappy tuesday as well! So odd little illness all weekend didn't accomplish anything I wanted to do, we are road tripping to CT on Saturday so I do have lots to do to get ready all of which I now need to get crammed in this week by thursday in fact, that is my goal to be ready to go thursday so I don't run around like an idiot on friday, stay up late then we don't get on the road at a decent hour. That includes tae kwan do & a dinner with mil-hey not having to cook never a bad thing!
Took dog to vet & has a double ear infection, poor little guy it's kind of like having an infant all over again because they can't tell you what hurts & that kills me. So drops & antibiotics he should be fine. It made me late for work and sort of out of sorts even further. Plus there is some goofiness at work that is seriously making me cranky in an evil & hateful sort of way which I just need to bottle which makes me crankier..
Then in a moment of goofing off got on a local forum to find myself begin trashed-well the way I do my job anyway, so I de-lurked for the first time, responded, stewed for awhile then felt better. Few wonderful people that I know came into to defend my honor & quite frankly I have no idea who this idiot is so why ruin my day? any further that is..
Then pick C up at daycare/summer camp whatever you want to call it his teacher hands me his cap gun-not really allowed..Which is what we freaking told the kid I am grateful it was just daycare & not school hell knox county has a zero-tolerance thing he'd probably get expelled & lord knows we can't afford private school & yes snob that I m not excited about the "alternative" school. So no tv, ninento ds, breathing you know the basics for a week & I've taken the cap gun away period end of story. When I calmed down had to do the mommy& daddy still love you, responsibility for actions speech blah blah blah, which quite frankly I never got as a child, I'll bet D never got as a child or any of our friends got, when did it all go PC? I really hate yelling at him or punishing him I always feel like the worst mom in the world, clearly he needs boundaries etc
wow I am this rambly & only one glass of wine, I'm getting old...