probably not very PC of me me but

I am particularly cranky today, overly cranky& it would seem and lot is getting under my skin a lot that should probably not. So very cranky that I even had to stop and asked my self good grief is it PMS?

an inauspicious start to my Friday

-in the drop off lane as we pull up to the school C announces he needs $10 for a class picture.
Guess you are not going to get one this year my friend
-as I try to merge onto the interstate an SUV type car driving up on my left pulls up right beside me....doesn't slow down to let me in front of him or speed up to let me in behind him no no right beside me.
Yeah I sped up & cut him off
-crazy customer day at work
seems like anytime I have a floor shift it's crazy customer day....clearly I attract them

seems only fitting this week

hurricane well me

dug myself into a fairly large hole

just been miserable and down on lots of things in my life right now...without any good cause..and it is wearing thin on me and I am sure on the folks around me too but I can't seem to shake the negativity. I just don't know how to dig myself out while everything & everyone just kinda annoys the hell out of me lately...bleeech

can't we all just get along?

okay fine I get it you don't like the the President but the vitriolic criticism is just a bit much....half of it doesn't even appear to be about his polices any longer. He went on vacation with his family?! Haven't all of the Presidents done that? And the political critics seem awfully busy comparing him to Hitler wait no no he is Stalin come on really??!? The nonsense appears to be getting in the way of true political debate which is a shame for supposed adults, supposed elected adults that are representing we the people. As I pointed out on twitter earlier today I never was a fan of President Bush but I never wanted the man to fail at his job.

lazy Sunday

well not exactly lazy-I have been working on homework, catching up laundry, made dinner in the crockpot, did dishes umm goofed off on the computer and caught up on some of my DVR'd tv shows a full day in my opinion and it is still only 2:00! I am going to put off grocery shopping till tomorrow afternoon so I can spend some time with my favorite boys. This only having one day a week off is taxing to say the least and yes I know it will get worse before it gets better but boy I have been feeling rundown, overwhelmed and just generally sorry for myself all damn week. I am hoping to have a better attitude this week but please bear with me if I can't quite manage to follow through with that!

just enough time off

to make having to actually come into work absolutely excruciating. I'm off tomorrow but of course back at work on Friday...
Next week back to 40 hour work week and I am dreading it already!

patience

it's a virtue.
it's a virtue I do not possess.

so much for family time

C is off hanging out with his grandmother
D has gone to watch the football game with some friends
and I am stuck under house arrest(light switch on my car is broken)
I thought we were going to go to a hot air balloon festival this evening my mistake
guess I'll start another load of laundry

damn

thought I had managed to escape the excruciating church birthday party for my FIL at the nursing home but no as luck would have it is today at 2. The church folk are nice and all , FIL"got" them in the divorce but when he had the stroke MIL stepped back in to his place and now they are re-married and all insanity of a few years ago is swept under the rug.
Crap these things are awful absolutely awful and I know they mean well but this stuff never interested FIL when he was well. And surprise surprise he still doesn't care for it not to mention it comes off more as a spotlight on how wonderful I am sort of event for MIL
oh well so much for a nice afternoon, maybe I will go to work.
D just decreed we would not attend can't wait to see her reaction. We have been waiting for a full on crazy moment we just hoped it wouldn't be directed at us.... here's to hoping

Saturday night fun

not not really I am home alone with the dog alternately having the chills and now I am sweating and my tonsil are enlarged so glad I spent my $15 co-pay to figure that out...
D pushed me into going to one of those minute clinics at CVS and I am glad I went the strep test came back negative but it could be a false negative so they also send it out and I should get more info in a few days however this boils down to it is probably viral and you can't take magic pills to feel better, she prescribed me something to gargle with that helps a little but my throat still hurts like hell. If there is no improvement by Monday I am going to call our family doctor because I am telling you this hurts as bad as the strep a few years ago.
The boys took MIL out to dinner I am glad for whatever reason we did not do all of the shopping for the cookout last night or there would be a pile of shrimp here I could not eat. And another thing I am not a big fan of soup, the brothy kind that is, I love clam chowder and pretty much any sort of bisque, chicken noodle not so much and I am tired of jello maybe I'll try some scrambled eggs. And I am bored out of my mind, can't concentrate enough to read a book, tv sucks and blah blah blah, not even getting into the fact that sick or not still have the final on Monday that I need to study for tomorrow isn't life grand?

good grief

sorry I was soo very whiney yesterday even annoyed myself after a while.
-Made it through class-only 2 left both of which involve exams so fingers crossed people.
-Looking forward to a lunch date with the girls at Crown & Goose again with the added benefit of Magpie's just across the street. cupcakes will be involved
-Just 9 days from travel to CT to see the parental units
-work is less well, Monday so far and I plan on a leisurely lunch so hopefully not so much stress there today
-new season of Project Runway starts tomorrow
so all in all much improved mood today but it is only 11:00 am

and it has been downhill ever since

started my morning out with a minor panic attack at work-oh wait I really started out by being accosted by a homeless guy as I was walking into the store, fun when you are trying to get in the store, re-lock and dash over to the ear-splitting wake-the-dead-alarm before it goes off while carrying all your junk & a hot cup of coffee. In all fairness discovered later he was indeed a bizzman selling watches perhaps not homeless at all but I digress..
Opened my pay stub to find less than a weeks worth of hours in the vacation slot. It is not something I generally concern myself with, I get several weeks a year & rarely use all my time but going away next week just gave it a glance. As I said panic attack, figured I would have to work both days this weekend and some overtime which is not really overtime per se as I am salary but I would owe the company time. I took a moment and emailed the owner that does payroll and she in fact had already deducted my time off so no worries but it was not an amusing start to my day.
My counterpart is on vacation this week so people talk to me more when he is gone and not in a good way I have to deal with more silliness than is humanly possible at work
'cause it's not like my normal silliness is going away or anything I just have double the fun.
And I have a headache that won't go away.
And PMS.
And class tonight.

detente

thought I might have screwed up with the MIL yesterday.
A gaggle of D's family was in town and there were big plans we're going to dinner, we're going to dinner then all of a sudden oops no dinner is cancelled
Currently my life is pretty scheduled if it's not on my to do list I don't have time to go to the bathroom. Because I thought we were going out I did not start dinner in the crock pot, I left work a little later with the plans to skip tae kwan do and so on and so on I re-worked my schedule based on dinner plans and when it got cancelled I must admit to being just a wee bit snippy on the phone. I also need to add in the fact it is hotter than hell here and I have PMS and I'm still dealing with allergies and I have my first exam tonight.
Luckily she knows how stressed I am and I got away with an apology. You just never know what slight whether real or imagined might set her off and quite frankly my life is just easier when we all just get along....

cranky and whiney this morning

oh me not the kid.
You know an hour is a lot of time when you wake up at 4.45 instead of 5.45 which is when your alarm is set and today is one of your really long days
I don't like waking up because the house is hot
I got up and still bumbled my way through getting ready and did not really make it in early or as early as I could have by getting up at 5 am
my allergies have kicked into overdrive or I have a summer cold either way I am sick of blowing my nose
it is just hot at work the building is old the air conditioning is antiquated in fact the office are not exactly air conditioned
and my day has not even really started yet...should be a doozie

random Thursday

-I do not like being awake at 4 in the morning
-neither does Oscar after grudgingly going outside he returned to curl up at my feet , go back to sleep & snore
-happy to see Project Runway returns in July
-if a class and lab are co-requisites there should be an equal number of spaces available in each
-you can have 25 years of academia blah blah blah but it does not add up you blustery fool and I am not an idiot that math does not compute-again 20 open spaces in class should equal 20 open labs
-if I hear uneducated, white & under a certain income one more time.. good grief come on you just want to call them crackers, admit it
-come on you just want to say the crackers won't vote for the black guy
-I am a woman, a liberal, a feminist, a registered democrat and still that does not mean I have to vote for the female for president
-or rather that female
-the assumption that all black people will vote for Obama annoys me too
-you gave up golf? why not something serious like eating broccoli or something?
-oh wait that was your dad-how 'bout making your bed now that is serious stuff....
-I am a bad mamma yesterday afternoon C was busy being his usual perky and repetitive self and I snapped at him-look back in the rear view mirror to see tears welling up in his eyes-just kick me in the stomach next time kiddo. Mommy is sorry.
-I miss my mommy I hate living 800+ miles away from her
-C has really great baseball coaches this season
-I want new luggage don't really need it but I have been ogling sales fliers
-I really hate waking up at 4 am oh did I say that already? I am delirious at this point

everyone just needs to get out of the way

good grief the backroom is ridiculous today. I can't do my work because I can't get to my work.
I am cranky maybe I should just go home and take a nap.....

grumpy little friday

really thought about hitting the snooze back and going back to sleep this morning but I had breakfast plans with one of my co-workers and I did not have her number to call and cancel plus the boy had to go to school or something lame like that..
Had a bit of coffee and started to feel like a human-sort of then I headed off the the Shoney's Breakfast bar and all is nasty greasy goodness. It was yummy and lots more coffee was had.
Now I have a screaming headache which is always fun-at least it isn't a migraine I don't have any medication with me- changed purses and all recently luckily I do have prescription ibuprofen which usually works pretty quickly.
In summation I am whiny and cranky today but looking forward to a lovely facial and massage tomorrow courtesy of my hubby for putting up with him I think is the reason :)
oh thank God the ibuprofen is indeed kicking in

ever feel like

just screaming at someone that they need to stop talking at you?

little known fact

D is actually the nice one in this couple. Don't cross me